Any of you ever feel as if theres no meaning to your exsistance? I most certainly do right now well, atleast around 3;32 am when i cant sleep. itry to imagine reasons why i should stick around on this rock... sadly through my 20 years of experience on it... Searching my soul i find not a one. The "good times" have only been experienced as a observer.. either by tv ..friends or tales i hear about on the net =) I have no history, atleast not worth mentioning. Just floating somewhere out in oblivion..lost among a sea of faces. YAddaa yadda yadda, just take a guess ... The point is.. i really cant think of a reason that i shouldstick around here.. the only thing which keeps me holding on is my sanity... it wouldnt make sense to do it..natural instinct kicks in.. perserve life. I would be one of those madmen that go back in time just to kick my mother in the stomach when she was with child, hence making it so i never kicked my self in the stomach..creating a time parodox, unraveling the space time continum... just so long as the rest of the univrse goes with me =)